i am

tender
with practiced rough edges
hardened face
with guarded cries
smiles
smothering tears
nonchalantly caring
until the breaking point of the heart
self-depricatingly confident
on tides of depressive happiness
beautifully deformed
to society's eyes
happily lonely
loneliness cried
courageously wrought with fear
bent
to the point of splitting
yet stoically standing
i am whole
i am here