left behind

nights blending into one long hour
i'm remembering being right here
in the same spot
rolling over and over
yes it is him again
comfortable familiar
yet i have fallen out of love
there's just the lingering remnants and my regard for him
i can't sever us from me
we have always been one
just now the love is gone
floating all around him in an aura
i want to pluck it from the air and cover myself
but that he would see through
i belittle myself to let him believe i love him
i can bear the pain better than he could
it's less than the look of his eyes, falling from their twinkling status, would give me
he is summer
i am winter
only a fall between us